What do I have to say about life? Right now I hate it. I hate my existence, I don’t know if I have ever hated it as much as as I do right now. Every moment I am haunted by this terrible disease, every part of who I am is built into it.
Sometimes I ask myself why do I even exist? Why am I on this place? What is the purpose of my existence? For most of my life I have known nothing but pain and fear. Is this what life is supposed to be? I really want it to be something more than that. I want to live the life that…
Maybe that is just a fantasy. Perhaps those are fairy tale lives. I just never thought this would happen. Everyone always says that, but I had definitive thoughts saying that I would never have cancer.
I’ve begun to relax as I type this. There is a certain peace in doing this blog. I really do believe I am experiencing all of this so I can help people. That belief is very important to me, it makes all of this worth something. I don’t know if I could endure all of this if there wasn’t something good to come of it.
I really have to believe that I can change the lives of others. My heart needs to make this terrible journey into something good. I need my life to mean something.
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