Most times when I breathe it hurts, like a knuckly knot tying off the life to my lung. Sometimes when I breathe it feels light, gentle and soft like a soothing sheet cuddling us asleep. Tonight as I lay in bed waiting to dance my sleepy time tunes my heart bounces behind my chest. It’s a rhythmic lullaby, a soothing story, a ballad of better times. The air is easy and for a change I do not feel queasy. My heart feels loved and I’m not being shoved. I feel good, great and even better now I am in a sleepy state. This is a marvelous moment, a comfortable time and a sign of a soothing scene that is coming to me in the land of dreams.
When storm clouds thunder and rumble, let your bellows blow. Reach into your chest and let your sadness go and perhaps the silly fun times will be begin to flow. Inspire someone’s soul with sun shine smiles. Give great intentions and subtly guide them a mile. Grant sweet spirits, grin ear to ear and glow with gooey goodness as you live with purpose.
Our insides can be sweet and sticky thick, like candy bits inside our spit. They may be empty and oily, perhaps slippery and slick, like a recently born yellow, cute little chick. But in the end, if we treat them right, simply put we wont have to fight. Our emotions will be true and our judgement fair, in our life we will live with little despair.
When we take the time to care, life becomes a great little lair. It is a cozy good place, where sadness has no base and our heart is happy, without any fear. So come with me now, look to the sky and prepare yourself to fly, cause no matter how the storm clouds rumble, we’ll be ready to give, by taking great strides to live our life.
Change is the way of life
At every step in our life we are faced with change. It’s an opportunity to become something else, to be transformed by the moment. I have experienced many opportunities to change in my cancer journey. I have done my best to accept these gifts as they are presented to me. When our world begins to transform we must temper it with wisdom, becoming something else is not enough, we must critically observe the transformation.
Ghost Tree (the art piece of the tree: see below) was inspired by the parts of our lives that die but remain even after we continue to live. Looking at it now I’m reminded of my mother, especially her journey through cancer and heart disease. She died of congestive heart failure and pancreatic cancer. Since my diagnosis there have been many moments when I wondered if she had carcinoid cancer.
My mother walked the road of cancer with grace. She made the most of her life. She lived her final moments by her terms. When she was put on hospice she chose to take control of her life and how she would walk into death. My mother was an inspiration, an incredibly loving and passionate woman.
In the last weeks of her life she arranged one final hurrah, a vacation for the entire family. Together we went on a cruise, it would be the last time we would be together as a happy, harmonious family.
The diagnosis of cancer is a catalyst for great change. It is through our wisdom that we decide whether this change is benevolent or malevolent. My mother showed me that no matter where the road leads us, we ultimately have the decision to decide how we leave. We decide how we will be remembered and how much love we can bring into the world.
A Good Life
As we move forward in life, parts of us die, while others continue to grow. When we lose people close to us it is important to remember how they lived, but it is also important to remember how they died.
The end of life is not the first death we’ve experienced. Change means something must stop so another may begin. These moments are smaller deaths to prepare us for the final one at the end of our road. If we gracefully accept the small changes in our life we will be ready for the final transformation at the end.
This post is about acceptance, love and growth. It is an exploration of life and those who have inspired us. Its a message that change can be good, the good comes from wisdom, temper it well and you will lead a good life.
I am beginning to discover that it is our dying parts that inspire others to live. To explore the magical nature of life and take the time to experience the experience. If you would like to walk back in time and read my thoughts from the past feel free to follow this link: