sights

Sights, Be who you were born to be

Sometimes we see signs that encourage and compel. Sights that inspire and raise us higher. They can be moments that move our heart into our dark parts and swell our eyes with tears. They can be shafts of golden light brilliantly shinning with the sun’s delight. Maybe they are inspired by sights and sounds so distant and alien, or flat and grey we dont know what to say.

Sometimes we share seconds with souls of such signifigance we treasure them silently, nestling and nuturing them with our spirit.

Perhaps we take these tremendous times and wear them like a shirt. Allowing our experiences to glow on our sleeve so we can become who we were born to be.

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Words of Hope 27

Remember it’s fun to swim and dance with glee, cause when you do it sets you free. Truth be told, if I may be so bold, being silly makes me smile. It gets rid of the waste by making my day taste sweet and tart as it warms my heart. It is especially great when its late and we feel old and cold. We can scrape off the stress as we are impressed by the marvelous melodies of our magnificent moments. So as you sit, sleep or stand wiggle your feet like you are listening to a band. Shift your hips from side to side like the electric slide. Laugh, love and live your life to the fullest. Use your clever mind and pull joy’s lever and surely you will have fun forever!

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Words of Hope 26

Most times when I breathe it hurts, like a knuckly knot tying off the life to my lung. Sometimes when I breathe it feels light, gentle and soft like a soothing sheet cuddling us asleep. Tonight as I lay in bed waiting to dance my sleepy time tunes my heart bounces behind my chest. It’s a rhythmic lullaby, a soothing story, a ballad of better times. The air is easy and for a change I do not feel queasy. My heart feels loved and I’m not being shoved. I feel good, great and even better now I am in a sleepy state. This is a marvelous moment, a comfortable time and a sign of a soothing scene that is coming to me in the land of dreams.


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Dungeon Crawl for the Cure

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Words of Hope 23

There are so many things we can do, but only if we are wearing blue shoes. If you want to know what to do, it will only take a few, we can take a cake from a pan and stand it up in the shape of a man. Surely, whirly maybe so, maybe his name will be Sterling Stan.

If it is, then we know, that we have to share with him how it goes. According to the band we have to play, a melody that celebrates this fine ol day. In this time it must be magical, a momentous moment that is fantastical and fun.

So without further a do, let me show you what can be done.

When you wallow in the shallow water inhabited by swallows you can call out to the walruses, malls and crosses.

You can play with Waldo by tossing your ball but only if are willing to confess you threw it over the wall. You can smile for awhile but only if you pet a goose like you’re a cast member of Foot Loose.

You can wine and dine Kevin Bacon but only if your willing to do some shake and baking. Be like Ricky Bobby at Taledega Nights and race like you’re going to out pace everyone to take first place.

These are some things you can do, but only if you are wearing blue shoes. Now you know what to do, it will only take a few, we can bake a cake and make a man, and name him Sterling Stan.

Now you know you can start to glow. You may embrace the silly till it’s stuck and play life like it’s a hockey puck. Slide and stretch, stride and glide cause in the end life will find a way to abide.


 

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Words of Hope 22

What makes you feel right? Is it a dark scary night? A woeful wind? A roaring rain?

Do you feel at peace when your heart is teased, when you can’t find release, perhaps when your bound in bondage?

Are you free when you can’t see or are in agony?

What is harmony? Is it a moment of dancing with glee? Perhaps when you discover your destiny? Is it a moment when you can simply be?

Can you reach inside yourself and find the things you need? Are you a circle that is complete? Are you ready to be set free?

Are you ready to breath?


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Stand Strong

Monsters Everywhere! Words of Hope. Stand Strong!

Within each and every one of us is the ability to inflict terrible suffering and bestow greatness onto the world.  We are a complex and magical matrix of roots fed with hurt and health, we tend to make mistakes, spread misery and inspire marvelous feels in others.  Our range of potential is vast and incredible, sometimes even unbelievable.  We hurt and help without ever knowing it, taking actions with uncertain fates and make decisions not knowing where they will take us. Simply put, the common person moves through life without any purpose, they are unprepared and unpredictable. This is normal, this is fine, it is the nature of existence. We like the fae creatures of the wild are enigmatic and spontaneous, sometimes we live in the now and take actions with uncertain outcomes.

Living life to its fullest means practicing mistakes, doing things by the seat of your pants and making a party of it.  You and I will do great things, good and bad without ever meaning to.  When we live in a world of forgiveness life becomes easier.  When the soft droplet of water splashes into the pond, the effects vibrate and impact everything else around it.   It is a subtle vibration but its gifts are enormous, our legs are lifted as our weight diminishes and the desire to walk on eggshells is reduced.  We can breath and speak, laugh and love, explore and see that life is more than a bore. When we are willing to forgive the world around us, we increase the likelihood we will be forgiven when we stumble and break every glass piece in the store.

This does not account for every kind of person there is, certainly there are more. There are all sorts of human creatures walking this beautiful blue orb.  Not all of them are the gems we hope to find in a treasure trove of tremendous times, some of them are bad, brutal and monstrous monsters. They swim through the waters like a hungry shark seeking to eat the souls of wayward spirits. Some of their victims are simply drawn from a hat, selected to be sliced open and served as supper.

These are the worst creatures of the world. They make life a living hell, they take the bad and boil it down until it is nothing more than a hellish frown. The people who lie, cheat, steal and destroy for their own pleasure, often with little gain are truly insane, for it is a simple pleasure, fleeting and false, one they do by climbing over other people’s walls. Once there they slice and stab into a victim’s skin to twist their face into a sadistic grin. These are the monsters who find their way to our lives, who pick and pluck like a buzzards beak, seeking to snip away our ability to see.

What do we do when we meet these monsters and they stomp on our feet? We stand our ground, be rigid and strong and never allow these monsters to spread their message of wrong. It will hurt I know, but this is how these things go. These people who smash and slice and try to eat everything nice will continue to consume until there is nothing new.

We need to stop giving into the monsters, their voice may be maddening and loud but they lack logic, reason and love. They hate the world, or it seems like they do, cause at every turn these humans are hitting and hurting others with their heavy hands.

We must put on our shoes and fix the world like glue, be a nimbus light and make the dark world bright. If we want to make the world a better place we have to spit into evil’s face. Nothing great is born from nothing, it is forged and pressed under great duress.  It is not a matter of becoming the best, but instead, it is a quest, a march against madness, a war against the antagonist, a crusade to love life and to live  it to its fullest.


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Mistakes and Fairness

Discovering forgiveness

Rationality 

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Words of Hope 21

Jump into the air and be joyously jolly.  Live, love and wear your heart like a glove.  Stand  with those who lift you high into the sky and dine on life like its a dreamy delight. Be better than before and flourish your beautiful light with all the might of a star. Let no bar barricade you from the gate of your divine destiny. Stand with me and become all you can be, a harmonious human, a happy heart and a silly soul swimming through the sea of destiny.


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Words of Hope 20

Words of Hope 20

When storm clouds thunder and rumble, let your bellows blow. Reach into your chest and let your sadness go and perhaps the silly fun times will be begin to flow. Inspire someone’s soul with sun shine smiles. Give great intentions and subtly  guide them a mile.  Grant sweet spirits, grin ear to ear and glow with gooey goodness as you live with purpose.

Our insides can be sweet and sticky thick, like candy bits inside our spit. They may be empty and oily, perhaps slippery and slick, like a recently born yellow, cute little chick.  But in the end, if we treat them right, simply put we wont have to fight. Our emotions will be true and our judgement fair, in our life we will live with little despair.

When we take the time to care, life becomes a great little lair. It is a cozy good place, where sadness has no base and our heart is happy, without any fear. So come with me now, look to the sky and prepare yourself to fly, cause no matter how the storm clouds rumble, we’ll be ready to give, by taking great strides to live our life.


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Words of Hope 15

Sometimes we are coated in oil and everything is slippery and sloppy.  Our inside zones burn and boil and desperately we seek to soak our souls in the soil. We reach out our hand to hold someone close, but often we are cloistered and closed away.

One day you will shake off that slippery, slick, sloppy sludge and sing a song of silly smiles. You will reach into your inside zones and touch your heart bone.  You will no longer toil and desperately seek to soak your soul in the soil, because you will be happy, harmonious and peaceful.


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Words of Hope 14

Words of Hope 14

The world can be a dark and dreary place and sometimes it can feel like we are constantly washing the muck off our face. Our lips turn sour becoming an upside down crown as it forms into a frown.  Our hopes and dreams fade, we feel lost, sad and sorry.  As our soul is saturated with dismay, our nerves begin to fray, so we sit and wait for the end of days.

There comes a time when we tire of the night and we rise. With a beaten and battered soul we muster all our might, attempting to fight the waste of this dark and dreary place. We punch, kick and scream, doing everything mean, but in the end we settle back in our seat, because once again we are beat.

We stand again, this time driving forward, pushing with all our strength, attempting to master the night, to defeat its dreariness and darkness. But, no matter how hard we push, now matter how strong we are, it is stronger. It defeats us because we cannot master the dark snippets of our soul.

Many of us never learn this lesson and we continually flex and force until we collapse under the strength of our own will. Each time we try to become the master, our life becomes a disaster, as we walk waywardly into an unwelcome wilderness. It takes a lot of walking, but eventually we learn we cannot master our emotions, we cannot make our heart zones cease to be. Until we can see how to achieve harmony we will never find the ease we need.

You are an amazing creature filled with so many magical moments and feels. Tend to your heart feels with loving care, find a purpose in their presence and love each for their beautiful uniqueness.


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Words of Hope 12

So many live life like its a long day dream, shambling like a zombie, existing without precision or purpose.  Wake up! Stop sleeping through life! If you don’t open your eyes, you will rise from your rest just in time to see you missed your chance to shine.

You don’t need to be a zombie, you can be a person of purpose. Someone who fights to live life to its fullest. A person who lives as a legend and leaves behind a legacy!

 


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Words of Hope 3 Bake yourself a better day

When the world is terrible, and it seems, there is no end in sight I do my best to write. I start with sorrow and sadness and penetrating strain. Then I search inwardly to find a purpose to the pain. Once I see the clue I move on to what I must do. I take the bitter and the bad and everything sad, pouring and mixing it into a bowl I make a batter that will soothe the soul.

After its baked I take a taste and help others learn we have no time to waste. No matter how bad we feel there is always a time to playfully squeal. Every bad is a blessing, every laugh a gift, and in the end that is the best tip.

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As you swim in the splashing sea you may feel the fish nibble at your feet. It is scary and may leave you weary, but you must force yourself forward. Push hard when it feels like you're flopping and floating, but know each stroke brings you closer to the coast.

I encourage you to keep Hope in your periscope and never be discouraged. See passed the stillness of the sea and the distance to the sandy shore. Know you are closer than ever before. There will come a time in the distant now when the might of your movement will take you to that perfect place, that incredible island, the sanctuary of your soul.

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Your journey has begun and it might not be fun. The first steps may feel slow and sluggish but soon you’ll have waded through the water. Your feet will settle in the sand and your heart will warm with resolve as all your fears dissolve.

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Neuropathy February 13, 2017 Vlog

Neuropathy

Late at night I notice my neuropathy the most, its also when I am alone.  The two are a terrible cocktail, especially when I begin to consider how much more I can tolerate.  I have known pain and agony, but this sensation or lack there of is maddening.  I need to feel the world, living without sensation is unbearable. There is so much pleasure in the world, so many wonderful experiences derived from touch.

These late nights are trying times for me.  When the sun goes down, my insomnia shifts into gear and I lose focus, sometimes the world looks like a blur and other moments I stare too deeply and get lost.  Its hard to hold on to the world when you can’t feel it in your hands.

Time traveling through Cancer

The idea of time traveling through cancer might seem silly, but its the best way to create change.  I would like to see this change end with the outcome of personal advocacy.

I wish I had someone in my life who was a true motivation. Someone who could have been my health advocate, someone who could have helped me avoid all of the pitfalls I faced.  I could wish I was the only one who would ever face these pitfalls.

Those wishes ultimately amount to nothing.  They lead to regret, a feeling that celebrates inaction, leading us to say “I wish this and I wish that.”

Truly at the end of the day I should have been my own motivation, my own advocate.

Throughout my life I’ve been able to avoid buyers remorse through my proactive prevention of regret.  My cancer journey has been more powerful than most of my philosophies, I hope that I can hold onto my drive and purpose, and retain the significance I see within my gift of cancer.

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