Remember it’s fun to swim and dance with glee, cause when you do it sets you free. Truth be told, if I may be so bold, being silly makes me smile. It gets rid of the waste by making my day taste sweet and tart as it warms my heart. It is especially great when its late and we feel old and cold. We can scrape off the stress as we are impressed by the marvelous melodies of our magnificent moments. So as you sit, sleep or stand wiggle your feet like you are listening to a band. Shift your hips from side to side like the electric slide. Laugh, love and live your life to the fullest. Use your clever mind and pull joy’s lever and surely you will have fun forever!
It’s a water day. On weekends when I feel ill. The water helps calm me. Like a massage against my skin, a warmth to my muscles. It makes me want to sleep away the last few hours before the sun rises. To wake and return to life refreshed. That is the life, one where I feel blessed.
I’ve been very tired these last few days, sleepy tired. Sleepy like cute little kitty kitties. I’m fatigued now and I’ve only been up for a short time. I wanted to stay the night with my lady friend but I was too sleepy to drive over to her place. Its a different kind of tired, its a cleaner feeling, its not the bone crushing weakness of chemo. I would describe it as a softer, sleepier sensation. The kind where you want to snuggle under some sheets and curl into the some blankets till you fall asleep. The nausea and other unpleasant sensations are there as well, but aren’t as bad as they were the other night.
If I could I would love to just sleep and sleep and sleep, but that’s the road to bad things. My cats love to sleep but even they are social creatures. They need interaction and so do I. Though my cats may love me, I love people and much of my energy is formed from the relationships with others.
This journey has taken much of my ability to flutter like a social butterfly, but one day I intend to reclaim that skill. I think that once I can put all the feels of now into the feels of the past folder, all will be moving in the right direction.
Fatigue seems to be one of the many sources that steals away much of what I have in life. Fatigue and all those other unpleasant sensations. It is important to a have a shout out for all the other baddies.
If I were to guess why I was so tired? I’d say the problem lies in my nutrition. If I ever knew how to feed myself I no long know now. I don’t even know what kind of groceries I should get when I get to the store.
When I get home I’m too tired to do anything with the food. I know the best way to get energy is to spend energy, but when you don’t have any to spend, you can’t make more. I’m not going to make wishes about this or that, but I will say that I am glad I was finally able to schedule an appointment with a clinical nutritionist on Monday.
This person is not going to be the end all be all, but they can be a start. I have the chance to improve my life through their education.
That’s where I am not and why I didn’t post over the weekend. I hope that you all are feeling super great and had fantastic adventures!
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