I had a dream last night, it was a rare breed, so positive and memorable. Its been a time since I’ve been able to remember a dream. I’d like to share it with you.
It was a dark sky, one slightly filled with all the stars in the sky, yet empty and blank. Somehow, like dreams do it made sense, the existence of an impossible duality. Perhaps the presence of two things that should not exist together was a gentle nudge of acceptance. A return to old ways, an acceptance of the things I cannot change.
I was standing at the edge of something, a series of yellow stones turned sideways. This was really high, beyond the edge of these side way stones I could see until the land stopped. The edge was pointing toward the sky like a pyramid. I was on one side and someone was on the other. There was a presence of profound emotion, like their emotions manifested like a ghost trying to posses me. They raised their hand offering me something, I looked down at their hand then back into their eyes. I stood there thinking and thinking and thinking.
Their eyes watered but no tears fell, they were too strong to cry, too resistant.
They desired to have control even in a moment when no control could be had. There was regret within them and it was strong. They wanted to release it and undo the things they had done.
There was a gift in their hand, it wasn’t a sudden manifestation, nor was it there before. Dreams have a certain way of just being, just having stuff in it that make sense and this was one of those moments. They offered the gift to me, it was the same offering they were trying to give with their pleading eyes.
I had some ideas about what this meant when I woke up. Even as I slept I believed I understood the significance of what the dream meant. Perhaps later in reflection I will change my mind to its meaning. Today I feel like it wasn’t anyone else, even though it felt like someone else was visiting my dreams.
Something tells me it was me, a former version of myself pleading with my current self. Maybe it is a future self pleading with me now. Maybe I am letting go of another life and moving into another. All I know is it enhanced my heart when I woke up, it was uplifting, clean and pure.