False Perception is one of the seven negative roots of the Tree of Life. It’s the act of devaluing our significance, role or value. Though it may be tied to self deprecation it includes exaggerated perceptions of self. Believing we are worthless is equally destructive as personal deification. False Perception may be easily summed up in the statement: “I am ugly, I am a bad parent, I am the best, I am the wisest.”
I believe myself to be a pretty positive and confident man. I avoid jokes that belittle my significance or reduce my value. One of my fundamental philosophies is that positivity begets positivity and negativity begets negativity. This philosophy permeates nearly all of my communication, anyone who knows me can vouch for the fun words I tend to use. This is not False Perception, it is instead it is the act of positive reinforcement.
Life is not perfect, nor are the people who live within it.
There have been moments when I’ve fallen prey to the negative, wrapped myself with a blanket of destruction and rolled in its misery. Sure, these moments may reflect the depression of some, but it is not how I typically experience it. Nor is it how my False Perception Manifests.
My False Perception takes hold during my manic phases, it makes me feel invulnerable and unstoppable. Often my wisdom is robbed from me and I lose the ability to critically analyze and interact with my peers respectfully. There are instances where I feel the need to be right, refuse to back down and I push or pull when I need to let go and relax.
Though it can be troublesome it has opened the door to many magnificent journeys. In reflection my inflated sense of self increased my deafness during a time when my inner scream was already incredibly quite loud. It was a destructive time, a period when the nightmare of my existence dripped from my pores, ruining nearly everything that I touched.
After considerable reflection I have overcome this False Perception, putting it back into its dark hole. For now, until the mania returns I can walk through life fed with the roots of wisdom, instead of the roots of False Perception.