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See, Open your eyes and…

Witness the world for the first time

The forest may be lush and green. It may be truly serene but not everything is happy and healthy in this scene. In this flowery forest are fights, bites and bitter cold, and whole lives are spent fighting for control. Though there are many first breaths there just as many deaths. It is a haunting place, a daunting land, a heavenly haven and a spectacular space.

Life, like this place is simple and comforting, complicated and crazy. It is wonderful and woeful, educated and ignorant. It is many things, but easy is not one.

What we see is not always what we get and what we do is not always true.
Sometimes we are sad swinging through the trees, even though we look happy to all who can see.

The illusions and the darkness in the forest can set you free the moment you decide to see. It is not the veil on your face that steals your sight, it is your hiding eyes that conceals the light. When you open your eye you will see we are fighting to simply be.

We all know terror, pain and shame. Each of us bumbling through life the same. We all have a wealth of wonderful abilities and awful weaknesses. Each of us hurting in different ways, but ultimately we hurt the same.

When we come to the cross roads of you and me and every bird and bee look both ways before you jump and scream.

The best way to see is to have empathy and with compassion you will be set free. When you growl and yell, twist and kick all your doing is making the world sick.

Anger and hurt is an infectious disease and love is its only remedy. It is a golden, lovely light that shines so bright it encourages you to wear life like a glove, to fly like a dove and to say good bye to the frivolous fight.

Words of Hope

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Empathy as an Intro

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Charlatans

Charlatans MLMs and con artists

Charlatans, MLMs and con artists

Watch out for the monsters lurking in the shadows. Be wary of those who whisper secret remedies able to cure your maladies. Remember good intentions spoken by sweet people can be poison. They may wish love, health and happiness, but if they have been bitten by the snake and poisoned with its oil, they will harm you.

Tearing their teeth through your skin they will pump venom into your blood. At first you will not notice the harm that is being done. The stars you see will trick you into believing their remedies are setting you free. Eventually you will see how dizzy you have become.

For some this is a terrible problem, because with the wrong treatment their life will be done. Often the weak and wounded have a window to take treatment, once that opportunity passes so too may their chances.

Charlatans love the sick and vulnerable

People suffering the horrible hell of cancer and other terrible illnesses are often targeted by monsters of various breeds. MLMs, charlatans and con artists blind themselves to the villainy of their awful actions by cannibalizing what little these innocent people have to live with.

The healthy monster does not understand how frightening the throb of finality can be. All they know is simple pleasures and little fears. They cannot fathom the horror of death knocking at their door.

These monsters attack the hope of the hurting by screaming and lashing out against science. They demand equal treatment for their make believe medicines, lying, cheating and taking advantage of the desperate and hurting. The MLMs, charlatans and con artists help themselves to what little money, time and life these people have left.

Take a stand against the Con Man

When I witness these horrid things I have to take a breath, step back and meditate on the sight I am seeing. It is a setting that makes me sad, especially since I know there is so much it. My insides burn and boil as I return from the tranquility of my inside zones. My soul hurts because I know there is too much of it. I know if I tried to stop all of it my mind would be driven mad.

I would lose my sanity because it is not the role of one man. It should be the goal of the community. As people we ought to vilify these monsters for what they are. Those who prey on the sick and dying are disgusting. They are a blight on our beautiful world.

Empathy is the key that will set our World Free

I believe many of our problems can be solved with empathy. So few take the time to imagine the plight of another. Far too often people want to focus on how terrible their own life is, thinking others can’t possibly understand. This opens a terrible door, it is the gateway to becoming a monster, an absolutely shitty human being.

I’m going to let you in on a secret. The truth is, life hurts. It hurts really bad and for most of us it only gets worse. My life has been pretty damn terrible and most days I feel horrible. Its a challenge to breathe, I can’t feel huge areas of my body, it burns and hurts in ways I can’t describe. I have no health insurance and I have cancer. It would be easy to say life sucks, cause in many ways it does.

With that said, my pain is no worse than yours. Pain is a subjective experience. Though we may use a 10 scale, we don’t experience each number the same way.

Instead of being incapacitated by the pain I use it to be the better version of myself. I know what it is like to hurt and I know others hurt too. Its a reminder to always empathize and be fair to my fellow humans. It is the ultimate levy against becoming a shitty person.

You can use it too. We can all use empathy to think about how our actions or statements would feel if said or done to us.

Treat others how You want to be Treated

If you had a serious illness would you want to be bombarded with expensive, unproven methods claiming to cure or control your disease? When faced with the cold hard truth you want what works. Science saves lives and personal advocacy will protect you from the monsters of the world.

So when you see the MLMs, charlatans and con artists selling snake oil speak up. There is a good chance you are saving someone from a terrible amount of suffering.

Discovering Hope

Shawn White Blog

Memes aren’t Facts

Nioxin vs Monat vs Rogaine 

The Life Coach

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NCAN Patient Conference

Our disease is a hard sea to sail, its dark and the waters are rough. NCAN’s patient conferences are the lighthouses we need to see. The opportunities are vast and have great potential. The world’s best are at your disposal. Complicated questions are answered, resources are revealed and for a week you can feel wonderful as you meet others who walk the same road. If you have Neuroendocrine cancer you need to attend an NCAN patient conference.

These conferences create opportunities, open minds and save lives. Knowledge is power, especially when it comes to our cancer journey. If you don’t have the right information you will walk down the wrong path, get pushed down dark roads and be robed of your quality and quantity of life.

While at my first patient conference I learned so much about the disease, the community and how ignorance has hurt me. It opened doorways to talk with the world’s leading doctors and nurses specializing in Neuroendocrine cancer. The event created opportunities that would not have been possible otherwise. I was educated about symptom reducing treatment, life saving possibilities and so much more!

If you have Neuroendocrine cancer these conferences will give you options, open doorways and grant you the tools to travel this terrible road. When I went to the NCAN patient conference in Las Vegas it was a transformative experience.  When I met others sailing the sea of this terrible disease, it parted the clouds, opened the sky and warmed my skin to some sunshine.

Everywhere I turned I saw care givers, companions and cancer patients who know how the cancer serpent can change us. How it often steals a certain something, perhaps our purpose and peace, or the golden glowy goodness that helped us feel free.

It is more than magnificent lectures, learning and literature, it is a doorway to a welcoming world. A break from the fight, a massage of the soul and a sense that we have a place to go.

It is an opportunity for patients to listen, learn and share. A time to receive a reprieve from the horrors of this disease. It is a weekend to be surrounded by doctors, nurses and pharmaceutical leaders who care. To be educated by those who know how this illness grabs, takes and swallows us like a snake. Coiling around us twisting and squeezing till we’ve had all we can take. It is a place where we are welcomed by compassionate, empathetic people educated enough to help us with our hurt.

In your time here you will see a sight that will set you free. If you are sitting in the shadows, lost on a road and feel you have no place to go, look to the light and find your hope. At this event there are others who have walked your path, who can light the road and show you home.

Neuroendocrine Cancer Awareness Network

Shawn White Blog

Living With Cancer

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How effective is the Alkaline Diet? Should I have any concerns?

Do you believe an alkaline diet or a sodium bicarbonate infusion is an effective way to treat cancer? Are you considering an alkaline diet? Are you doing it because you want to live a healthy life, perhaps to fight and prevent disease? If that is the case then adopting the alkaline diet would be a step in the wrong direction. It does not cure, treat or affect disease in any positive way.

If you’ve read any of the pH Miracle books or are considering adopting an alkaline diet, I strongly suggest researching its inventor.

The Father of the Alkaline Diet, Robert O. Young and author of the “pH Miracle” books claims acid is responsible for all disease and the cure is alkalinization. Preying on the fear and desperation of the terminally ill he made millions of dollars with his diet plans, books and treatments. In 2014 he was charged with conspiring to practice medicine without a license and multiple counts of grand theft. As of 2017 he was found guilty of practicing medicine without a license and was sentenced to over three years in prison.[1]

Taking calcium has no effect on blood acidity. You could pour an entire bottle of calcium pills down your gullet and it would have no effect what-so-ever on your blood acidity. Sure it may neutralize some of the acidity of your stomach, but homeostasis would revert it back within a few minutes.[2]

Robert O Young “treated” seriously ill people with unproven and potentially dangerous procedures without a medical licence. Under his “care” many have paid the price of their life in addition to thousands of dollars for ineffective treatments.

In 2012 Naima Houder-Mohammed paid Young $77,000 for treatment, where he infused sodium bicarbonate (baking soda) into her blood stream. She was treated by him for three months, during which her health worsened until she died. [3]

When we are desperate we often take great leaps of faith in the pursuit of survival. It is important we are armed with the right information to protect ourselves from charlatans and snake oil salesmen.

If it is too good to be true, it probably is, the alkaline diet and the treatments of Robert O Young is a great example of this. Unfortunately, some believe the alkaline diet is the magical cure for everything. Like any magical cure, its effects are placebo at best. Its a nonsense idea created by the convicted felon Robert O Young. This supposed expert on biology and diet is not a microbiologist, hematologist, medical doctor, naturopathic doctor or trained scientist. In fact he doesn’t have any post high-school degrees what-so-ever[4].

Many seriously ill people have lost thousands of dollars and their lives due to Young’s pseudo-science treatments. If you are considering a new diet, consult your licensed health care provider and thoroughly research your options before committing to a new lifestyle.


Research

Shawn White Blog

The Placebo

Orthomolecular What?

Denial

Denial – Tree of Life

Denial is one of the seven Negative roots of the Tree of Life.  It is what opened the hellish portal leading to the end of my romantic relationship.  This root stitches blinders to our eyes, placing us in eternal darkness, hiding us from the world. In summary Denial may easily be summed up with the statement: “I am not this, I don’t have that.”

My denial manifested after my lung was removed in July.  I desperately wanted to believe I was no longer bipolar.  This desperation influenced my research and lead me down the path of pseudo science.  I wasn’t completely aware of it at the time, but I stretched science to convince myself my manic depression was cut out with the enormous tumor in my chest. There were subtle tactics I used to convince myself it was gone, repeating that reality over and over until I believed the falsehood.

I’m not entirely sure I completely believed the idea. The signs told me that I hadn’t cycled for so long it was impossible that it was still with me. Though I saw this pattern and the science felt like it didn’t match up there was a lingering itch within me.  I believe that I secretly knew it wasn’t gone, but wasn’t willing to accept it.

Truth be told having cancer was a large enough disease.  

The idea of having two chronic illnesses simply was too much.

It took a long time, but I am no longer in denial.  I am so far away from denial I have embraced the reality of the disease.  Now I have accepted it, I have removed the root of Denial and replaced it with the positive root of Acceptance.

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Experiencing Life, Experiencing Cancer

While experiencing life I have faced all sorts of challenges.  Some have been OK but most have been terrible, that’s the nature of the journey.  If cancer were a super fun time, then people would be taking summer vacations to visit.  That’s not to say that there aren’t good things about it, it is just not the most fun adventure.

Sometimes we forget this disease is a part of our life, it is an experience, life by its very nature is meant to be explored.  From time to time we need to take a breath and calm down, look at our lives and think about what we are going through. Perhaps ask ourselves if we want more from our existence than the pursuit of survival?

I don’t want to live just to survive, I don’t fight to defeat the monster inside me.   I am here on this beautiful earth to experience life, to create a legacy and to do something that improves the value of existence for others.  The pain, agony and finality of my cancer reminds me of the limited time we have on this world.  It reinforces my resolve to pursue my passions, achieve my dreams and live life by my terms.  Instead of heeding the wishes of my disease.

Shawn White Blog

Living with Cancer

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